It was the saddest Eid ever. I felt shading in mountains of shame. I wish I could change the time. There was no way I could do that.
Again, I wished I was home. Unfortunately, I wasn’t. Eid prayer supposed to start 9:00am. “Wake up, you have to go.” My wife said. I glanced at the watch with my half open eyes and sadly replied: “It’s already 9:30.” I didn’t want to exist for the time being. I thought I don’t deserve participating in such a holy day without performing prayer.
Mom would have woke me up on time if she was here. Unluckily, my mother was thousands and thousands miles away from me. That was another sad moment of life; I really felt absence of my family again. I was waiting for the end of the day, I have waited months for. I still wish I didn’t missed the prayer.
What comes in your mind when you have to take an inevitable u-turn on your way? Do you think “u-turn” is only a “U” shape turn by something to reverse direction, or, a complete reversal in opinion, actions, or policy? Generally, people think they have wasted their time on the action which has ended to a u-turn. To the best of my knowledge, we sometimes take one step backward to go hundreds of thousands of steps forward. Don’t you think it is derisive to sit at the end of a dead end street instead of making a u-turn and move farther? U-turn is not a negative step to your journey. But, it is one of the positive steps of your journey by taking a different direction. You are going to face lots of u-turns in your life. Don’t hesitate to take a step backward to invariably continue the rest of your journey. If you refuse the fact that there are u-turns in life and give up, You are going to live rest of your life at the end of a dead end street.
In the middle of the night while everyone is sleeping, I am rummaging every corner of my brain to find the exact word, so that I can instinctively continue my imagination. In order to remarkably improve my English; I invariably think in English besides speaking, reading and writing. As English is my second language I inexplicably get confused some times. I misunderstand meanings of words; I use them as I used to use the same meanings in my own language. I forget hard words and I mix words from other languages with English. It might be derisive to hear that I even take my notebook to the toilet with me.
Yes! That is the truth. In my point of view nothing is impossible in this world. But, changing the impossibility to possibility depends on how much you want that to happen in your life. How serious are you? Are your goals really important to you?! Look at you! That car you drive, house where you live, clothes that you wear, school where you study and on and on. Were you checking the mail one day and you saw that the department of motor and vehicle (DMV) sent you a driver license that you never applied for? Did anyone give that car to you for free? Did you wake up one day finding yourself in a strange bed? Seeing the keys to an apartment with a one year contract free for you to live? Did any magician put these clothes on you in the blink of an eye? Or vehemently, did a super power drag and drop you to school? No. you studied the driving book, gave the oral and behind the wheel test, saved your money and bought the car. You intended to have such a place to live in. you spent so much effort, that is why you are living in your own place. You wanted to wear something else. You went to the closet chose those clothes among the hundreds of clothes you have and you are now wearing it. The amount of effort you put towards your education is reflected by the level of education you have achieved. You studied non-stop that’s why you are graduating early. You did well in school that’s why you are accepted to the best university around the world.
As a conclusion, it is apparent to write that what you own now, is your past intentions and goals you set plus effort you spent to make your wishes come true. That is why I even think in English. I am using every chance in hand to change my skimpy English to a better one. I think eloquent speech is persuasive and easy to understand. That’s why I am getting prepared to face my difficulties with better English in America. You work on what you want to have in the future. You will not regret setting valuable goals for your future, though; you are not going to achieve them without hard work.
